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Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
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8:34 pm - Charles Bukowski "Oh Yes"
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there are worse things than
being alone
but it often takes decades
to realize this
and most often
when you do
it's too late
and there's nothing worse
than
too late.
current mood:  contemplative
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| Saturday, January 7th, 2006
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2:08 am - For those looking:
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| Wednesday, July 6th, 2005
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6:41 pm - Why not?
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| Tuesday, July 5th, 2005
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9:15 am - o_o
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Brice and Ari kept me up all night. I'm not even sure I can sleep now. *shakes fist* Bastards! Why is your story so much more important than working on the entry for next week! Argh! It's a top secret story. No one can read it until it actually shows up in the natural course of the story. *points and laughs* I need to rest up for work tonight. It's going to suck majorly.
current mood:  cranky
current music: plane flying overhead
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| Friday, July 1st, 2005
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7:06 pm - Guacamole tacos are teh yum
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Every time I open the fridge, I am greeted by a Smirnoff Ice. Every time I open the fridge, I want to drink that Smirnoff Ice. Sigh. I have been working a lot lately. By a lot, I mean that I worked yesterday morning for four hours, then had to go in yesterday evening to work eight hours, and I have to go in tonight for another eight hours. Tonight I am covering for the freezer guy, so this should be interesting. Normally when I work, I space out and think about my stories. I have written and rewritten the ending of Ari+Jade so many times. I think I may have it right. Need to ask a friend about some minor medical details. My mother may know as well, but the asking might freak her our a little. Apparently I freaked out one of my friends with all of my strange questions to him. They're always for my stories! I am not that disturbed! Besides, the questions I asked him were fine and normal, if a bit random. Gee, now I really want to write the end of Ari+Jade. That may actually be a good idea. Then I would just need to write the story up to that point and knit it together as opposed to just writing toward some vague goal along a meandering path. (As enjoyable as that is...) I also need to work on Jade some more. One of my readers doesn't like her. -_- She thinks she is boring. T-T It's only the beginning! She just hasn't done anything yet! On the other hand, one of my other readers doesn't like Ari. I wonder if he has read anything lately, though. A lot is going on with Ari now, right? And I still need to introduce more characters for his side of the story. (Eep! So many!) For those who do like Jade, I promise that I will be introducing her story more very soon. I wish I had more readers. And that people commented more. Oh well. I know I'm not writing for nothing, dammit!! I will finish this story and I will get it published someday!! *look of extreme determination* (Though maybe I should finish a story that is closer to being completed and try to get that published first.... Heh.)
current mood: determined
current music: Tatu "Skazi Zachem"
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| Monday, June 27th, 2005
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2:16 am - So me. So very me.
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| Sunday, June 12th, 2005
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7:01 pm - At least I am in good company
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( Quiz )
I have been on a bit of a drawing kick lately. But don't worry! I'm working on my stories, too. I have too many in my head, though. It makes things so tough. :[ I bought a "How to Draw Manga" book on couples, so I plan to put that to very good use. I should really put my last invsted in series to work, "How Dunnit," a series of how to write mysteries, or at lest elements common to mystery books. I have on eon weapons, I think, and how to rip people off. There are more, but those are the only ones I can think of at the moment. I have like 5 or more. I should try to work on my mystery when I am done with my current projects. It was getting pretty good reviews! Why is it that whenever I post a story somewhere I end up gettin mobbed for more. Do they realize how hard it is to write a book? >_< What I really need to do is finish my vampire story. There really isn't much left. I went to work on it the other night when I realized not all of it is typed up and I am not sure in which notebook I left it. ^_^* Whoops. Maybe I will pull it out when I move.
current mood:  hard-working
current music: the Monkees
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| Monday, June 6th, 2005
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2:05 am - Motor City Pride
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This doesn't have a whole lot to do with writing. The only connection is that I kept picturing different characters of mine (mostly Ari and co) going to a pride event. I think I may write that one. It would probably be amusing.
I decided that I prefer Michigan Pride in Lansing. Ferndale is a nice city, but it's a very small community when compared to, you know, our state capitol. There were protesters there, of course, and Rob made the mistake of talking to one. We had to drag him away. When we were leaving (we passed these people twice), the other girl (who is straight and Christian) that was in our group (I barely knew her at the time, and now think she is a huge horrible bitch whom I never want to see again, but at the time she was still okay) got really mad at the protesters and asked if we could hold hands. I said sure. So we walked by them with our arms around each other just to spite them. I may have to use that in a story. It was fun.
If you have never been to a pride event, I highly suggest going. There are distinctly different crowds present:
There is of course the older generation from like the Stonewall days (sometimes even older people, which is always good to see). The men from this camp like to walk around in tiny, tiny shorts (usually leather), wife beaters (go figure), and generally show off their skinny old man bodies, or worse, pale old fat man bodies. >_< Not a pretty sight, I assure you. The women are mostly normal looking and wear hippie clothes, or just shorts or jeans and a t-shirt or tank top. They look a lot like that art teacher you had in high school. :P
The generation that comes after that I guess is my generation, and they tend to look fairly normal since they are mostly college students or young career men and women. The girls tend to be on the butch side, but not flamboyantly butch, just "is that a boy or a lesbian" kind of butch with baggy shorts and wife beaters (and of course the close cropped hair). The slightly younger male members of this crowd tend to go around topless or in sleeveless shirts and eye each other like bulls in mating season (whatever that is like). The predominant mission of this group is to hook up. With ANYONE.
Then there is the even younger generation of either high school kids or early college kids. They tend to be a little on the Goth side, very pierced, very colorfully dressed (literally and figuratively), and have dyed hair or just really strange hair styles. The girls seem to prefer bikini tops to wife beaters and are generally more femme than either of the above groups. Their focus seems to be more to have fun and meet people than to specifically hook up with anyone. The gay scene is all new to them, so they can be giggly and/or bubbly.
Of course in these groups are subgroups, and the odd person who stands out, like drag queens, families, straight people, etc, but those are your main pride groups. Personally, I think I prefer the last one if only for the feminine girls. May they never go through their butch phase. I really loathe the butch phase. If you're genuinely butch, fine, but if you are doing it just because it's the dyke thing to do, put the fucking razor down and stop. Just stop. Good girl.
current mood:  cheerful
current music: Sims II
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| Saturday, June 4th, 2005
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1:15 am - Eep! >_
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I entered a writing contest. Pray for my story "Lilies"! I really want it to win something! I really like the story and think it has a good shot after reading last season's winner (which I actually sort of enjoyed). Here is the site.
current mood:  anxious
current music: "Fast As I Can" by Great Big Sea
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| Friday, June 3rd, 2005
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3:53 am - "In every living thing there is the desire for love."
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Maybe I should read D.H. Lawrence. He's supposed to be sort of sexy and is the author of the above quote. Another good quote is from Christopher Marlowe: "Come live with me and be my love, And we will all the pleasures prove." Aw, how romantic can you get? I wish I had someone to get romantic over me. But it'll probably never happen. The curse of all Librans. So why this talk of love and romance? Well, I was re-reading some of my old fanfics (one could have used a really good going-over, but it's a fanfic, so I don't really care), and one was so sweet and so romantic and somehow caught me up so thoroughly I was utterly put in the mood for romance. I want to write something so romantic that it brings tears to your eyes! It would be a short story, which means I either have to establish characters quickly, or choose already established characters, but do I have characters that are even remotely romantically inclined? I want to write something sweet and light and fluffy. Like yogurt. Mm, yogurt. I might have some. But I digress. Argh, who should I write about!? It has to be modern, too, because it has to involve a motorcycle or maybe a car. A sexy black convertible car! :D Keh keh keh... I could just write yet another Mika and Random story and place it in the modern era. I don't know, though. It's still early, too (for me), so I may watch "Sense and Sensibility" which I am STILL borrowing after all these months. Alan Rickman is so sexy in that movie. And sweet. I feel so bad for his character, but I love him to death. Okay, okay, characters... characters... Well, I shall sit here and brainstorm while you sit there and stew, awaiting my romance story with baited breath. MWA HA HA HA!!
current mood:  romantic
current music: "The Lonely Moon" from Tenchi Muyo
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| Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
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5:38 am - Another Random and Mika story
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Why do I write these? I guess because they are cute together. I will probably write more. Maybe someday it will turn into an epic love story. *snort* Yeah, Mika and Random in love. Riiight. This one is rated PG.
Random and Mika again
current mood:  tired
current music: birds heralding the early morn
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| Friday, May 20th, 2005
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3:46 am - Huzzah!
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I just drew two more characters: Jade and Gavan! I'll try to put Jade up today (I am so proud of it!!), but I may hold off on posting Gavan for a while since the readers don't actually know who he is yet. (Mwa ha ha ha ha....) I want to draw Kayden and Erin in some kind of cute couply pose, but Erin's hair is really long and I imagine it being a pain to draw. Plus it would be difficult to find an adequate pose for the two of them. (There is also the added problem that Kayden quite a bit resembles Gavan... Or vice-versa since Kayden came first.) Well, I am off to tweak my picture a bit. Huzzah! ( 5 Question Meme )
current mood:  high
current music: Patti Smith Group "Because the Night"
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| Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
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3:15 am - Hello, writing journal
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I was woken up about three hours earlier than I would have wanted by a flood in the kitchen. Or more precisely, a Rob on the freaking out side due to a puddle on kitchen floor. Granted, the puddle ran from the sink and covered a good portion of the floor, but I have woken up to 13 inches of water covering the entire floor of our basement, so this was not a crisis to me. I was feeling very groggy, so I informed him that I was in no shape to drive to the store to buy a new mop head. He told me to do whatever I needed to do to feel more awake, so naturally I went back to bed. Apparently this was not included in "whatever I needed to do," so Rob came in and woke me back up, as did the cat, who does not understand my sudden change in schedule. So this is why I am feeling sluggish and fatigued at 3am. I have been getting quite a bit of writing done, though. I am nearly a full three weeks ahead of ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ari_and_jade. I would be a full three weeks, but I decided that I have been breaking up the story too much. Especially considering that the first chapter had zero breaking points (=those little triangles) which I may go back and change when I try to get it published. Or I can just cut down on the triangles. So many characters have shown up. Next week will introduce two more, though one is unnamed. Shh! His identity is a secret. *wink* The other is a horribly minor character whom I think is really annoying, so feel free to dislike him and his stupid name. He serves his purpose, though. Eventually. We also will be seeing more of Brice in a few weeks. Characters have been making their appearances in stages, I've noticed. Both Brice and Kayden first showed up over the phone. Maybe this illustrates the importance of communication in our lives. Or that Ari is a horrible recluse. Like a spider. Hiss! (Do spiders hiss?) I had really intended Maya to show up a lot sooner, but it just hasn't worked out that way. She is such a strong presence in Ari's life that I am amazed I have made it this far without her. I also had thought that Mina would show up sooner, but I thought that maybe the characters all popping up so quickly one after the other was a bit much. So instead, shy and quiet Brice gradually moves into the picture. Since Ari probably has a shrine built to him hidden in his apartment somewhere, it's probably best that he show up soon. I want to draw a picture of Brice and Ari. They'd be so cute together! So would Kayden and Gavan. But who is Gavan? Oh no! I've said too much! Run away!
current mood: awake
current music: Ani DiFranco "Not A Pretty Girl"
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| Sunday, May 15th, 2005
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9:50 pm - I return
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I am back from vacation. It was fun. I thought that I worked tonight, but apparently it is not until tomorrow. That will give me more time to get on the new schedule. Instead of working two nights a week 9pm to 5:30am, I work four mornings a week from 3am until 7am. Hm. Oh well. I like short shifts. Since I unexpectedly have the night off, I should probably type up what I wrote in Florida. I also have a bonus image for Ari fans. Yay!
You're Siddhartha!
by Hermann Hesse
You simply don't know what to believe, but you're willing to try
anything once. Western values, Eastern values, hedonism and minimalism, you've spent
some time in every camp. But you still don't have any idea what camp you belong in.
This makes you an individualist of the highest order, but also really lonely. It's
time to chill out under a tree. And realize that at least you believe in
ferries.
Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.
current mood: chipper
current music: Animal Crossing
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| Sunday, May 1st, 2005
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6:51 pm - Whenever I start ruminating about writing, I end up here
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I work tonight, finals in the morning, then I have the week off until Thursday night, when I work again. Friday we leave for Florida. The time between tomorrow and Thursday I feel I should devote to writing. ari_and_jade is caught up to where I have written. I wrote a teeny tiny bit more to keep ahead of the entries, but I took a break to study for my Bus 101 final (the one that counts) and I now find it difficult to write more in that. I changed its font and spacing to match Jaime and discovered that Jaime has surpassed A&J by over 10 pages. I find that hard to believe, and yet there it is. I guess I have been slacking off on A&J lately. Maybe I can rectify that on break. I don't think that I will be going back to school for a long, long time, so I want to devote myself to writing. With only two shifts a week at the store, and my whole life ahead of me, I anticipate having a lot of free time. That's sort of a dizzying prospect. My life has always been chunked into parts. First it was getting through elementary school, then middle school, then high school, then getting to Japan, then getting my degree from Western, then getting my degree from Valley, but now that I have given up on that, I have nothing left. Could it be I am finally ready to get myself published? That is such a wide open prospect... My heart beats faster when I think that I am finally at a point where I can devote myself to what I truly want in life. I have mentally pushed aside so much of my other desires so as to clear the space in my head for my characters and stories. I feel sort of a quiet calm inside, and there is also a definite determination. I won't say I wasn't serious before, but I will say that now I am going to finally fucking do it. I am not sure how long I will be able to live in this house with Rob leaving by the end of the year and Matt wanting to live in the dorms, but if Dale is moving down to Kzoo, maybe he and I can get an apartment together. That would be an interesting living situation, but I think I'd like it. Maybe other people would be ready to move out by then, too, and we could rent a house downtown or something. I'd rather be on this side of town than out on the other side of Western with all those new apartments going up. I might be persuaded if they are cheap, though. :P And they are pretty nice looking, not to mention each of the six or so bedrooms has its own bathroom.
current mood: pensive
current music: "We Didn't Start the Fire" by Billy Joel
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| Sunday, April 24th, 2005
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5:31 pm - Um
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Working on two books at the same time is... well... I'll let you know when I actually have to start meeting deadlines. :P (Which will be next week.) I feel so liberated with the new book. Since it target audience is 16 years old (give or take a few years), I can get away with keeping the plot simple (though simple for me is probably not simple by others' standards). It has a totally different feel to it than A&J. It's actually totally different from anything else I've been writing since high school. Craziness. I love it, though. Nothing quite like writing something new and having it go so well.
current mood:  euphoric
current music: click clack
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| Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
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9:00 pm - I don't have to worry about my virginity
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I Am A: Lawful Good GnomeBard Mage
Alignment:
Lawful Good characters are the epitome of all that is just and good. They believe in order and governments that work for the benefit of all, and generally do not mind doing direct work to further their beliefs.
Race:
Gnomes are also short, like dwarves, but much skinnier. They have no beards, and are very inclined towards technology, although they have been known to dabble in magic, too. They tend to be fun-loving and fond of jokes and humor. Some gnomes live underground, and some live in cities and villages. They are very tolerant of other races, and are generally well-liked, though occasionally considered frivolous.
Primary Class:
Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.
Secondary Class:
Mages harness the magical energies for their own use. Spells, spell books, and long hours in the library are their loves. While often not physically strong, their mental talents can make up for this.
Find out What D&D Character Are You?, courtesy of NeppyMan (e-mail)
current mood:  weird
current music: fans
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| Sunday, April 17th, 2005
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5:12 am - Heh heh... *sweatdrop*
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Well, I wrote 8 pages single-spaced tonight. Unfortunately, it's a new story. It's something that has been in my head for a great number of years (perhaps 12), and I may have even attempted to start it before, but this is my latest try. I think it has come together very nicely so far. I may write more still. Depends on how tired I get in the next few minutes. Right now, I really have to pee.
current mood: inspired
current music: humming
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| Monday, April 4th, 2005
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10:37 am - Cool phrase of the day
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| Friday, April 1st, 2005
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8:25 pm - Whoot
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You Are A Maple Tree |
There's not anyone in this world quite like you.
You are full of imagination, ambition, and originality.
Shy but confident, you hunger for new experiences.
You have a good memory and learn easily.
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current mood:  like my brain came loose
current music: me humming "Sailing Day" by Bump of Chicken
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