Story Journal

Charles Bukowski "Oh Yes"

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 00:34:41 GMT

there are worse things than
being alone
but it often takes decades
to realize this
and most often
when you do
it's too late
and there's nothing worse
than
too late.

For those looking:

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 07:09:55 GMT

Here are all the entries that I could find that I have made with Collin and Aaron. I hope to add to that lost tomorrow. We'll see how much time I have.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/boatswain_yuki/537.html
http://www.livejournal.com/users/boatswain_yuki/915.html
http://www.livejournal.com/users/boatswain_yuki/1028.html
http://www.livejournal.com/users/boatswain_yuki/5265.html
http://www.livejournal.com/users/boatswain_yuki/5593.html

Why not?

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 23:41:14 GMT

The Basics.
[ Name ] Crysta K(ay) Coburn, though lately I have leaned towards C. K. Coburn
[ Nicknames ] I am the one person in my family who does not go by a shortened version of their name. But online I go by a lot of different aliases.
[ Birthday ] 20 October, 1982
[ Age ] 22
[ Astrological sign? ] The poster child for Libra. Also a Dog. And a Crow. Which is pretty cool.
[ Chinese zodiac sign? ] Now wait just a darn minute! That's cheating.
[ Location ] On the couch in the back room where it is near sweltering, but here I sit anyway. I am still in Kazoo for the time being.
[ Marital Status ] No marriages of which I am aware.
[ Eye color ] I-can-pierce-your-soul-with-these-suckers blue.
[ Height ] 170cm. That falls somewhere in between 5'6" and 5'7".
[ Shoe size ] Usually a 9 1/2 or a 10 US women's. In US men's I wear a 6.5 preferably, but usually end up with a 7. In cm I think I wear a 23.
[ Parents still together? ] Happily.
[ Siblings? ] One older brother.
[Nieces/Nephews? ] My brother's fiancee has a daughter whom I more or less consider my niece. I've known her for about three years or so and we share a birthday.
[ Kids of your own? ] No.
[ Grandkids? ] God, I hope not.
[ Pets? ] I have a kitty whom I love dearly and a boyfriend of whom I am also incredibly fond.
[ Education? ] I have a bachelor degree in Creative Writing and Asian Studies. I also have an unfinished associate degree in business administration, but who cares about that?
[ Rent, lease, or own your home? ] I was renting, now I am house-sitting. Soon I will be back in with my parents and mooching.
[ Have any credit cards? ] I have two, but I only use one. I prefer to use debit, but sometimes I just have to spend money I don't have on hand.
[ What do you drive? ] A four-door teal 92 Ford Taurus. If he weren't leaking from every orifice, he'd be more pimpin'.

Favorites
[ Color ] Blue. And black. And orange-green-purple (but only when together).
[ Number ] 12, for some reason. It's from when I was little. I think I had a nightgown with 12 written on it or something and I decided one day to make it my favorite number. Why argue with tradition?
[ Animal ] Dragon. Dolphin. Cat. And birds, but only because if I could be any animal, it would be a bird so I could fly.
[ Vehicle ] Train. I've never been on an Amtrack, though, but I love the trains in Japan and the thing in Chicago is pretty fun, too.
[ Flower ] Not really sure. My favorite rose is the Tropicana, but the rose is not my favorite flower.
[ Scent ] Money. Closely followed by jasmine mixed with eucalyptus. Ohhhh yeaaaah...
[ Shape ] Triangle.
[ Soda ] Cherry Cola. Then peach soda. Then strawberry soda. Then Dr Pepper. I don't usually like carbonation, though.
[ Book ] "The Neverending Story" and something else that I always forget. It was a recent addition.
[ Band ] The Monkees. I have been in love with them for longer than I remember. Also L'arc~en~Ciel and Luna Sea, though I feel bad because I don't know any of the members of Luna Sea. I also love the Smiths.
[ Song ] "Wish" by Luna Sea.
[ Food ] Salmon sushi. Dear God. I could eat it forever. It's better than sex.

Do you...
[ Color your hair? ] Often. For the first time in a long while I am my natural color. I hate it.
[ Twirl your hair? ] Like when I'm bored? It isn't quite long enough.
[ Piercing? ] Do I piercing? I have my ears double-pierced if that's what this means.
[ Cheat on tests/homework? ] Not anymore. ;P
[ Drink/Smoke? ] I do not smoke, but I do occasionally drink. It's hard for me to get drunk, though. My tummy can't take the hard stuff. Give me sake if you want to see me sauced.
[ Like roller coasters? ] I hate them. If there were a ride that just went straight instead of in circles, and just gently up and down rather than plumeting, I would like that.
[ Wish you could live somewhere else] I wish I had my own apartment or had an apartment with a roommate. The house I was renting just didn't cut it, and living with my folks cramps my style.
[ Want more piercings? ] Maybe. I'm not sure if there is enough room, but I'd like to get another piercing in my right ear so that'd be three in the right and two in the left.
[ Like cleaning? ] I like things to be orderly, but I get distracted when I try to keep them that way.
[Write in cursive or print? ] I'm not even sure I remember how to write in cursive. I can read it, though. For the most part. I think anyone will tell you that my print is bad enough to read.
[ Swear a lot? ] I don't consider it a lot. I also don't consider "damn," "shit," or "piss" to be swear words. :P "Fuck" has permanently replaced "mess" though. As in the phrase, "Wow, I really fucked that up."
[ Own a web cam? ] No. I steal my boyfriend's.
[ Know how to drive? ] Yes, I do both own a car AND know how to drive it. I bask in your awe and amazement.
[ Diet? ] I eat. That's a diet.
[ Own a cell phone? ] I do, but I don't use it much. Yay for pre-pay!
[ Ever get off the computer? ] I've been known to, but I hope to make it my livlihood someday. Got to get in the practice now.
[ Habla Espanol? ] No tengo pesos.

Have you ever...
[ Gotten a speeding ticket?] I got one once, but it wasn't my fault. This big truck fucker was riding my tail and I was trying to get away from him. It was freaky as shit. The cop scared him away, but I got the ticket. Fuckers.
[ DUI? ] Never. I am very good about crashing where I drink.
[ Been in a wreck? ] Not in the slightest. *crosses fingers and prays*
[ Been arrested?] No, and I hope I never am.
[ Been in a fist fight? ] Not since elementary school for me, too. I used to beat kids up for money. What an enterprising little tyke I was.
[ Kicked someone in the nuts? ] Not lately.
[ Stolen anything? ] I have borrowed and forgotten to give back. I don't think I have out and out stolen something with malice, though.
[ Held a gun? ] I am really not sure.
[ Drank? ] Pfffft.
[ Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name?] Never that bad.
[ Considered a life of crime? ] Who hasn't?
[ Considered being a hooker? ] I've thought about it, but I just don't like sex that much.
[ Cried over a girl? ] I don't think so.
[ Cried over a boy? ] Oh yes.
[ Lied to someone? ] Oh yes, though I don't actually condone lying, so I try to leave out details which may or may not lead someone to a false conclusion. Like instead of saying "I'm sick of working so I won't be in tonight," I say "I'm sick and can't make it in tonight."
[ Been in love? ] I think I have.
[ Fallen for your best friend? ] No, but I have fallen for friends.
[ Made out with JUST a friend? ] Yes. All of them girls. Huh.
[ Been rejected? ] Not openly. I don't propose unless I am certain of a yes.
[ Used someone? ] Yup. I use people all the time for things. I give in return, though. Except that one guy. He deserved it. Heh heh heh...
[ Been used? ] Probably.
[ Been kissed? ] No, I've only ever had sex. Didn't I just say that I've made out with people? Isn't that kissing?

Now
[Current mood] Restless.
[Current music] Cat Stevens "The Wind" is playing on my Ari+Jade playlist.
[Current taste] My mouth.
[Current hair] Short and flat. I hate it. I need to both dye it and give it volume. I like its unwaviness, though.
[Current annoyance] My job situation.
[Current smell] Air.
[Current thing I ought to be doing] Either buying hair dye or writing. I'm taking a break, too.
[Current desktop picture] World of Warcraft night elf chick with giant cat mounts.
[Current book] The second Slayers novel, though it has gone MIA.
[Current cds in stereo] Eric Stuart Band "Blue Dressed in Black"
[Current crush] That is a secret. Though I don't think it can be considered a crush anymore. Maybe lingering feelings for a certain someone.
[Current favorite celeb] Cam Clarke!! XD
[Current hate] A certain someone. She knows who she is. She probably isn't reading this anyway.
[Current job] Night stock, but that is ending soon.

The last time
[Last book you read] The first Slayers novel. Before that it was "The Great Gatsby."
[Last movie you saw] That MST3K about giant locusts. "Beginning of the End"?
[Last thing you had to drink] Water.
[Last thing you ate] Brown sugar and cinnamon poptarts. My tummy was not happy.
[Last person you talked to on the phone] Rob.

Do you...
[Do drugs?] Only the legal kind and I do not abuse them.
[Have a dream that keeps coming back?] Sometimes they repeat, but usually only once.
[Play an instrument?] No. I suck.
[Believe there is life on other planets?] Anything is possible, and I'd say the odds are definitely in their favor.
[Remember your first love?] No. I can't decide who that would be. There have been many people I have been fond of over the years.
[Still love him/her?] If he or she is no longer in my life, than the fond memories still linger, but that is where the feelings remain.
[Read the newspaper?] On occasion.
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] Many. Only one of the girls I have made out with was straight.
[Believe in miracles?] I depend on them.
[Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?] If you really set your mind to something, anyhing is possible.
[Consider yourself tolerant of others?] Generally, but I'm not when it comes to manners.
[Consider love a mistake?] Love is never a mistake. It's what you do with it that counts.
[Have a favorite candy?] Gobstoppers.
[Do well in school?] Only when I want to.
[Go to or plan to go to college] I may or may not get my masters. We'll see.
[Wear hats?] I wore one today!
[Hate yourself?] No. I don't think I'm terribly likable, but I have learned to live with myself. It's who I judge everyone else by.
[Have an obsession?] Writing.
[Have a secret crush?] Oiya oiya.
[Collect anything?] Pens. Asian music. Foreign coins to some extent. People.
[Have a best friend?] I consider myself blessed to have many good friends.
[Close friends?] I'm still blessed.
[Like your handwriting?] I love it! :D
[Care about looks?] I do. :(

Love life
[First crush] I think it was my neighbor friend's older brother.
[First kiss] Neighbor friend from above. I was four. I think he was three. Or maybe I was three and he was two, but I don't think his mama would have let him out of the yard if he was two.
[Single or attached?] I'm very attached to my Rob. He's such a sweetie.
[Ever been in love?] I believe I have, but I feel such an arrange of emotions for people that I would label as love, so it's hard.
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] Yes, but a shallow undeveloped love.
[Do you believe in "the one?"] Wasn't he in the Matrix?

Final Word of Advice: A tiny echo of the Lord.

o_o

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 13:14:53 GMT

Brice and Ari kept me up all night. I'm not even sure I can sleep now. *shakes fist* Bastards! Why is your story so much more important than working on the entry for next week! Argh! It's a top secret story. No one can read it until it actually shows up in the natural course of the story. *points and laughs* I need to rest up for work tonight. It's going to suck majorly.

Guacamole tacos are teh yum

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 23:20:08 GMT

Every time I open the fridge, I am greeted by a Smirnoff Ice. Every time I open the fridge, I want to drink that Smirnoff Ice. Sigh. I have been working a lot lately. By a lot, I mean that I worked yesterday morning for four hours, then had to go in yesterday evening to work eight hours, and I have to go in tonight for another eight hours. Tonight I am covering for the freezer guy, so this should be interesting. Normally when I work, I space out and think about my stories. I have written and rewritten the ending of Ari+Jade so many times. I think I may have it right. Need to ask a friend about some minor medical details. My mother may know as well, but the asking might freak her our a little. Apparently I freaked out one of my friends with all of my strange questions to him. They're always for my stories! I am not that disturbed! Besides, the questions I asked him were fine and normal, if a bit random. Gee, now I really want to write the end of Ari+Jade. That may actually be a good idea. Then I would just need to write the story up to that point and knit it together as opposed to just writing toward some vague goal along a meandering path. (As enjoyable as that is...) I also need to work on Jade some more. One of my readers doesn't like her. -_- She thinks she is boring. T-T It's only the beginning! She just hasn't done anything yet! On the other hand, one of my other readers doesn't like Ari. I wonder if he has read anything lately, though. A lot is going on with Ari now, right? And I still need to introduce more characters for his side of the story. (Eep! So many!) For those who do like Jade, I promise that I will be introducing her story more very soon. I wish I had more readers. And that people commented more. Oh well. I know I'm not writing for nothing, dammit!! I will finish this story and I will get it published someday!! *look of extreme determination* (Though maybe I should finish a story that is closer to being completed and try to get that published first.... Heh.)

So me. So very me.

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 06:16:45 GMT

Libra - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully!

You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.

You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.

Your negative traits:

You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it.

You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...

You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.

Your ideal partner:

A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you do.

Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.

Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.

Your dating style:

Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.

Your seduction style:

Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.

Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough.

Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.

Tips for the future:

Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.

Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.

Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did.

Best place to meet someone online:

Platinum Romance - the best place to meet other singles who love romance as much as you do

Best color to attract mate: Green

Best day for a date: Wednesday

Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

At least I am in good company

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 23:08:11 GMT

You Belong in Paris

Stylish and a little sassy, you were meant for Paris.

The art, the fashion, the wine, the men!

Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park...

You'll love living in the most chic place on earth

What City Do You Belong in? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

I have been on a bit of a drawing kick lately. But don't worry! I'm working on my stories, too. I have too many in my head, though. It makes things so tough. :[ I bought a "How to Draw Manga" book on couples, so I plan to put that to very good use. I should really put my last invsted in series to work, "How Dunnit," a series of how to write mysteries, or at lest elements common to mystery books. I have on eon weapons, I think, and how to rip people off. There are more, but those are the only ones I can think of at the moment. I have like 5 or more. I should try to work on my mystery when I am done with my current projects. It was getting pretty good reviews! Why is it that whenever I post a story somewhere I end up gettin mobbed for more. Do they realize how hard it is to write a book? >_< What I really need to do is finish my vampire story. There really isn't much left. I went to work on it the other night when I realized not all of it is typed up and I am not sure in which notebook I left it. ^_^* Whoops. Maybe I will pull it out when I move.

Motor City Pride

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 06:06:18 GMT

This doesn't have a whole lot to do with writing. The only connection is that I kept picturing different characters of mine (mostly Ari and co) going to a pride event. I think I may write that one. It would probably be amusing.

I decided that I prefer Michigan Pride in Lansing. Ferndale is a nice city, but it's a very small community when compared to, you know, our state capitol. There were protesters there, of course, and Rob made the mistake of talking to one. We had to drag him away. When we were leaving (we passed these people twice), the other girl (who is straight and Christian) that was in our group (I barely knew her at the time, and now think she is a huge horrible bitch whom I never want to see again, but at the time she was still okay) got really mad at the protesters and asked if we could hold hands. I said sure. So we walked by them with our arms around each other just to spite them. I may have to use that in a story. It was fun.

If you have never been to a pride event, I highly suggest going. There are distinctly different crowds present:

There is of course the older generation from like the Stonewall days (sometimes even older people, which is always good to see). The men from this camp like to walk around in tiny, tiny shorts (usually leather), wife beaters (go figure), and generally show off their skinny old man bodies, or worse, pale old fat man bodies. >_< Not a pretty sight, I assure you. The women are mostly normal looking and wear hippie clothes, or just shorts or jeans and a t-shirt or tank top. They look a lot like that art teacher you had in high school. :P

The generation that comes after that I guess is my generation, and they tend to look fairly normal since they are mostly college students or young career men and women. The girls tend to be on the butch side, but not flamboyantly butch, just "is that a boy or a lesbian" kind of butch with baggy shorts and wife beaters (and of course the close cropped hair). The slightly younger male members of this crowd tend to go around topless or in sleeveless shirts and eye each other like bulls in mating season (whatever that is like). The predominant mission of this group is to hook up. With ANYONE.

Then there is the even younger generation of either high school kids or early college kids. They tend to be a little on the Goth side, very pierced, very colorfully dressed (literally and figuratively), and have dyed hair or just really strange hair styles. The girls seem to prefer bikini tops to wife beaters and are generally more femme than either of the above groups. Their focus seems to be more to have fun and meet people than to specifically hook up with anyone. The gay scene is all new to them, so they can be giggly and/or bubbly.

Of course in these groups are subgroups, and the odd person who stands out, like drag queens, families, straight people, etc, but those are your main pride groups. Personally, I think I prefer the last one if only for the feminine girls. May they never go through their butch phase. I really loathe the butch phase. If you're genuinely butch, fine, but if you are doing it just because it's the dyke thing to do, put the fucking razor down and stop. Just stop. Good girl.

Eep! >_

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 05:19:52 GMT

I entered a writing contest. Pray for my story "Lilies"! I really want it to win something! I really like the story and think it has a good shot after reading last season's winner (which I actually sort of enjoyed). Here is the site.

"In every living thing there is the desire for love."

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 08:05:50 GMT

Maybe I should read D.H. Lawrence. He's supposed to be sort of sexy and is the author of the above quote. Another good quote is from Christopher Marlowe: "Come live with me and be my love, And we will all the pleasures prove." Aw, how romantic can you get? I wish I had someone to get romantic over me. But it'll probably never happen. The curse of all Librans. So why this talk of love and romance? Well, I was re-reading some of my old fanfics (one could have used a really good going-over, but it's a fanfic, so I don't really care), and one was so sweet and so romantic and somehow caught me up so thoroughly I was utterly put in the mood for romance. I want to write something so romantic that it brings tears to your eyes! It would be a short story, which means I either have to establish characters quickly, or choose already established characters, but do I have characters that are even remotely romantically inclined? I want to write something sweet and light and fluffy. Like yogurt. Mm, yogurt. I might have some. But I digress. Argh, who should I write about!? It has to be modern, too, because it has to involve a motorcycle or maybe a car. A sexy black convertible car! :D Keh keh keh... I could just write yet another Mika and Random story and place it in the modern era. I don't know, though. It's still early, too (for me), so I may watch "Sense and Sensibility" which I am STILL borrowing after all these months. Alan Rickman is so sexy in that movie. And sweet. I feel so bad for his character, but I love him to death. Okay, okay, characters... characters... Well, I shall sit here and brainstorm while you sit there and stew, awaiting my romance story with baited breath. MWA HA HA HA!!

Another Random and Mika story

Tue, 24 May 2005 09:41:14 GMT

Why do I write these? I guess because they are cute together. I will probably write more. Maybe someday it will turn into an epic love story. *snort* Yeah, Mika and Random in love. Riiight. This one is rated PG.

Random and Mika again

Huzzah!

Fri, 20 May 2005 07:53:15 GMT

I just drew two more characters: Jade and Gavan! I'll try to put Jade up today (I am so proud of it!!), but I may hold off on posting Gavan for a while since the readers don't actually know who he is yet. (Mwa ha ha ha ha....) I want to draw Kayden and Erin in some kind of cute couply pose, but Erin's hair is really long and I imagine it being a pain to draw. Plus it would be difficult to find an adequate pose for the two of them. (There is also the added problem that Kayden quite a bit resembles Gavan... Or vice-versa since Kayden came first.) Well, I am off to tweak my picture a bit. Huzzah!

1. If you could live in any time period in any country, what would it be?

Most likely Heian era Japan. I would also prefer to be male, but given that this is Heian era Japan, I wouldn't have to worry too much about being female and thereby fettered.

2. What song do you most associate with yourself as a person?

"Blue" from Cowboy Bebop comes to mind.

3. Do you have any ridiculous pet peeves?

When people flick their fingernails with their thumbnails. It grates on my nerves like nothing else. I don't know if that is ridiculous or just very specific, but there you are.

4. What is your favorite scent?

Jasmine with eucalyptus. If anyone can ever find me that scent again, you will be my eternal hero.

5. If you were an ice cream flavor, what would you be?

Cherry cordial with a slight rum aftertaste.

....What? You were expecting maybe Blue Moon? ;)

Hello, writing journal

Wed, 18 May 2005 07:28:34 GMT

I was woken up about three hours earlier than I would have wanted by a flood in the kitchen. Or more precisely, a Rob on the freaking out side due to a puddle on kitchen floor. Granted, the puddle ran from the sink and covered a good portion of the floor, but I have woken up to 13 inches of water covering the entire floor of our basement, so this was not a crisis to me. I was feeling very groggy, so I informed him that I was in no shape to drive to the store to buy a new mop head. He told me to do whatever I needed to do to feel more awake, so naturally I went back to bed. Apparently this was not included in "whatever I needed to do," so Rob came in and woke me back up, as did the cat, who does not understand my sudden change in schedule. So this is why I am feeling sluggish and fatigued at 3am. I have been getting quite a bit of writing done, though. I am nearly a full three weeks ahead of ari_and_jade. I would be a full three weeks, but I decided that I have been breaking up the story too much. Especially considering that the first chapter had zero breaking points (=those little triangles) which I may go back and change when I try to get it published. Or I can just cut down on the triangles. So many characters have shown up. Next week will introduce two more, though one is unnamed. Shh! His identity is a secret. *wink* The other is a horribly minor character whom I think is really annoying, so feel free to dislike him and his stupid name. He serves his purpose, though. Eventually. We also will be seeing more of Brice in a few weeks. Characters have been making their appearances in stages, I've noticed. Both Brice and Kayden first showed up over the phone. Maybe this illustrates the importance of communication in our lives. Or that Ari is a horrible recluse. Like a spider. Hiss! (Do spiders hiss?) I had really intended Maya to show up a lot sooner, but it just hasn't worked out that way. She is such a strong presence in Ari's life that I am amazed I have made it this far without her. I also had thought that Mina would show up sooner, but I thought that maybe the characters all popping up so quickly one after the other was a bit much. So instead, shy and quiet Brice gradually moves into the picture. Since Ari probably has a shrine built to him hidden in his apartment somewhere, it's probably best that he show up soon. I want to draw a picture of Brice and Ari. They'd be so cute together! So would Kayden and Gavan. But who is Gavan? Oh no! I've said too much! Run away!

I return

Mon, 16 May 2005 01:52:11 GMT

I am back from vacation. It was fun. I thought that I worked tonight, but apparently it is not until tomorrow. That will give me more time to get on the new schedule. Instead of working two nights a week 9pm to 5:30am, I work four mornings a week from 3am until 7am. Hm. Oh well. I like short shifts. Since I unexpectedly have the night off, I should probably type up what I wrote in Florida. I also have a bonus image for Ari fans. Yay!

You're Siddhartha!

by Hermann Hesse

You simply don't know what to believe, but you're willing to try
anything once. Western values, Eastern values, hedonism and minimalism, you've spent
some time in every camp. But you still don't have any idea what camp you belong in.
This makes you an individualist of the highest order, but also really lonely. It's
time to chill out under a tree. And realize that at least you believe in
ferries.

Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Whenever I start ruminating about writing, I end up here

Sun, 01 May 2005 23:05:30 GMT

I work tonight, finals in the morning, then I have the week off until Thursday night, when I work again. Friday we leave for Florida. The time between tomorrow and Thursday I feel I should devote to writing. ari_and_jade is caught up to where I have written. I wrote a teeny tiny bit more to keep ahead of the entries, but I took a break to study for my Bus 101 final (the one that counts) and I now find it difficult to write more in that. I changed its font and spacing to match Jaime and discovered that Jaime has surpassed A&J by over 10 pages. I find that hard to believe, and yet there it is. I guess I have been slacking off on A&J lately. Maybe I can rectify that on break. I don't think that I will be going back to school for a long, long time, so I want to devote myself to writing. With only two shifts a week at the store, and my whole life ahead of me, I anticipate having a lot of free time. That's sort of a dizzying prospect. My life has always been chunked into parts. First it was getting through elementary school, then middle school, then high school, then getting to Japan, then getting my degree from Western, then getting my degree from Valley, but now that I have given up on that, I have nothing left. Could it be I am finally ready to get myself published? That is such a wide open prospect... My heart beats faster when I think that I am finally at a point where I can devote myself to what I truly want in life. I have mentally pushed aside so much of my other desires so as to clear the space in my head for my characters and stories. I feel sort of a quiet calm inside, and there is also a definite determination. I won't say I wasn't serious before, but I will say that now I am going to finally fucking do it. I am not sure how long I will be able to live in this house with Rob leaving by the end of the year and Matt wanting to live in the dorms, but if Dale is moving down to Kzoo, maybe he and I can get an apartment together. That would be an interesting living situation, but I think I'd like it. Maybe other people would be ready to move out by then, too, and we could rent a house downtown or something. I'd rather be on this side of town than out on the other side of Western with all those new apartments going up. I might be persuaded if they are cheap, though. :P And they are pretty nice looking, not to mention each of the six or so bedrooms has its own bathroom.

Um

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 21:35:39 GMT

Working on two books at the same time is... well... I'll let you know when I actually have to start meeting deadlines. :P (Which will be next week.) I feel so liberated with the new book. Since it target audience is 16 years old (give or take a few years), I can get away with keeping the plot simple (though simple for me is probably not simple by others' standards). It has a totally different feel to it than A&J. It's actually totally different from anything else I've been writing since high school. Craziness. I love it, though. Nothing quite like writing something new and having it go so well.

I don't have to worry about my virginity

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 01:01:02 GMT

I Am A: Lawful Good GnomeBard Mage

Alignment:
Lawful Good characters are the epitome of all that is just and good. They believe in order and governments that work for the benefit of all, and generally do not mind doing direct work to further their beliefs.

Race:
Gnomes are also short, like dwarves, but much skinnier. They have no beards, and are very inclined towards technology, although they have been known to dabble in magic, too. They tend to be fun-loving and fond of jokes and humor. Some gnomes live underground, and some live in cities and villages. They are very tolerant of other races, and are generally well-liked, though occasionally considered frivolous.

Primary Class:
Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.

Secondary Class:
Mages harness the magical energies for their own use. Spells, spell books, and long hours in the library are their loves. While often not physically strong, their mental talents can make up for this.

Find out What D&D Character Are You?, courtesy ofNeppyMan (e-mail)

Heh heh... sweatdrop

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 09:14:56 GMT

Well, I wrote 8 pages single-spaced tonight. Unfortunately, it's a new story. It's something that has been in my head for a great number of years (perhaps 12), and I may have even attempted to start it before, but this is my latest try. I think it has come together very nicely so far. I may write more still. Depends on how tired I get in the next few minutes. Right now, I really have to pee.

Cool phrase of the day

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 14:37:49 GMT

"Love is the slowest form of suicide." -unknown

Whoot

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 01:27:28 GMT

You Are A Maple Tree

There's not anyone in this world quite like you.

You are full of imagination, ambition, and originality.

Shy but confident, you hunger for new experiences.

You have a good memory and learn easily.

You are sometimes nervous and always complex (especially in love).

What is Your Celtic Horoscope?

Weirdness

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 05:56:31 GMT

I need a vice. I came to this conclusion again on my way home from Easter breakfast at my uncle's. I have been drinking coffee, which I do consider a vice of writers, or perhaps artists in general. I don't remember when it was, but sometime in the past couple days I was craving cigarettes like nothing else. I've never smoked in this lifetime, so I can't really explain these random cigarette cravings I occasionally get. I can feel the cigarette in my mouth, my lungs fill with smoke, and I sigh it out again. If I can imagine it clear enough, I feel better. God, it is so relaxing. If they weren't cancer sticks, I might consider taking up the habit. I have tried drinking, but my stomach is too weak to handle hard liquor and beer is just gross. I don't really care for wine either. I like rum, but I have to mix it with things (coke or orange juice, etc), and that generally makes it sweet, which upsets my stomach terribly. Sake doesn't upset my stomach, but you just can't get it in the US like you can in Japan. I'm starting to crave a cigarette again. That is so annoying. Maybe I should get herbal cigarettes, not that inhaling anything is exactly good for you. I just get jittery thinking about smoking sometimes. It drives me crazy. Coffee also upsets my stomach, so I can't really use that either. Sigh. I feel like I need a change.

Also, in case there are any fans of my writing out there, you should friend LJ user "ari_and_jade," the address of my very first serial novel. I have chapter 1 part 1 posted do far. Please feel free to post comments, but you don't have to. It might help to motivate me if you do, though. :)

I'll bite

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 21:54:14 GMT

1. What is first word that comes to mind when you think of me?

2. Run a google image search on that word.

3. Reply to this entry and post the image here.

4. Put this in your journal, so others can do the same.

...

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 22:25:13 GMT

I need to write. So badly.

A moment of silence, please

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 23:06:34 GMT

My friend informed me today that the great Hunter S. Thompson committed suicide. Here is an article detailing this sad event: Hunter S. Thompson

No, I don't have anything better to post

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 04:02:32 GMT

CD: Evening ^^
Me: There are people building a volcano in my garage.
CD: I think that's the BEST greeting I've ever received.

Must. Write. Ari. Must. Write. Ari. Must. Write. Ari. Must. Write. Ari. Must. Write. Ari. @_@ He won't let me sleep. Could you be a little less angsty please!?! Gah!!!! I realized that Ari and Aaron's stories are quite similar. I keep thinking of Ari's as the "straight story," but he spends the vast majority of his story being gay. He isn't really gay. He isn't really anything. He just loves Brice, then falls in love with Jade. Eventually. Like, not even in the first story about them. The falling in love part comes later. Why do I always feel compelled to write "after stories"? I guess I just always want to see what happens to people. "Happily ever after" just won't cut it.